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Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Ego Goal-Oriented or Task Goal-Oriented Athletes?

Assalamualaikum and afternoon peeps!


Goal-Orientation is define as 'a person's disposition to be either a task goal-oriented or ego goal-oriented'.

So, yesterday class (Sports Psychology) our lecturer had discussed a very interesting topic which focus on the The Goal Perspective Theory. Based on this theory it says that the ego goal and task goal orientation are differ from one another in term of how an individual's function in order to achieve the Goal Orientation.


Let me show you with a clear picture:

GOAL ORIENTATION


* EGO GOAL-ORIENTED                                                      * TASK GOAL-ORIENTED
- Perceived ability as being a function of                                    - Perceived ability as a function of
outperforming others as opposed to                                               effort & improvement. 
self-improvement.

  • perceived ability is an ability of a person views on the relationships between ability, effort, mastery and social comparison (Nicholls, 1984; Duda, 1989).

So, in yesterday's class, our lecturer wanted us to do Not-A-Totally-Serious debate (Female vs Male students) with the motion entitled:- 

"Should Barcelona invested on Luis Suarez who are ego goal-oriented person than other person whoe are more task goal-oriented? Should they spend the money for those who has talent only or for grooming the player?"...Yup sounds like that hehe..

I and Izzat Zaid (as the representatives for Female group) while Iman and Izzuddin (for the Male group)..Before we begin, our lecturer had given us (Female group) an advantage to choose whether to be on the Government (agree with the motion) or Opposition (disagree with the motion) side..and we decided to go with the Opposition side..Hmm to tell you the whole progress that we made during the class yesterday, it was an awesome-heol-daebak experience that I've!! (sorry for my multiple use of language) :P 

First-to-debate, the Male end the debate by saying that "...although he (Luis Suarez) had done mistakes but it'll be hard for Barcelona to get another 'already skillful talent' like him to strike for more goal for the team.." and he also said that "the punishment could be take place whenever the player are doing all of those mistake such as by reducing their wages and etc..." ohh and I still remember the last part which Izzu mentioned this "a glass can be turn into a diamond but a diamond will always be a diamond.." deep but you see..if the diamonds was not being polished and taken care of, it will sooner become dull and it will not shine anymore..more or less, it will just be the same as a glass though! am I right? 

Next to rebut is Me. Well to be honest I was not really play much of important role as a debater but I just saying what I think and make it clear the reason why we did not agree with the motion..First, I replied by defining the term 'grooming' - to get into readiness for a specific objective and why we really encourage Barcelona to spend their money towards those who are task goal-oriented more than ego goal-oriented like Luis Suarez. 

Although talented skill is important in order for a particular team to be 'well-known and famous' but it doesn't prove that all of these so called talented skill athletes could just stay loyal towards their own team or club unlike those who at first did not have any of the talent or skill but does have the passion to strive for best and improve in future. Secondly, the attitude also differ between the ego oriented with task oriented athletes. For ego oriented athletes, their attitude towards the sports was far more concern about demanding a money or perhaps something beyond that..why is that??because they already had the talent. But, for those task oriented athletes..they would never bother about all those fame or money but all that they care is self-improvement, the passion that they had is for the sake of "I want to play this sports and I want to be better.." Lastly, I replied to them that for some talented athletes, they would probably have this High Ego/Low Task performance when it comes to training. Just a simple example, when you already have the skill and you're famous and rich..will you keep practicing just like when you first involve in a particular sports?? Most of athletes will doubt that cause "ohh I already know all those football trick & skills so I don't want to practice..bla..bla..bla" as compared to those who have zero knowledge about that particular sports..

So, to conclude..Alhamdulillah we did win in this debate but the most important knowledge that we have here is that to choose what kind of achievement that we want to make in the future..is it just a goal or will the effort comes alongside in order for us to achieve that GOAL..it is we who can make that choice!! 


Jazakallah Khoir Kasiran for reading my blog!!





Treat from me haha ^_^ 




Written By,
Kiyoptafafai92


Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Fun Run ^_^


Assalamualaikum & hello everybody!

Last Saturday was a great experience for me and my friends..the Cancer Awareness Fun Run was really amazing but unfortunately I was not in a good condition cause I've asthma so I can only be a 'cheerleader' for my fellow friends..however, I did some observation during the event and I can see lots of young man and women were joined..although there are quite of number from older people (chinese and malay) but the support from young people especially is something that we need to be proud of..this shows that the young generation did concern about having a quality of life and health..so, it does give a great opportunity for us to see such an awareness is arise in our society :)


Lets take a pics!!


They start and end here 


Hayati, Athira and Hanani


Happy faces after their long journey haha !


Me and them :)


With their medal and goody bags ;)



With one of the young runners 


Hope that I could participated in the next event Inshaa Allah..Aminn~


Thanks for reading ^_^

You raise me up !


Assalamualaikum w.b.t..

Alhamdulillah (praise be to Allah) for this life that HE gave to me and also for a wonderful family that he gave me..

Well, today story would not talk about sport much ^_^ hmm..did you remember the moment when your father first teach you how to ride a bicycle? yeahh..how can we forget that right..so, how about this..did you remember the moment when your father look into your eyes and say to you "be careful while playing"?hmm most of us would probably don't remember that and above all we would say that, it was always my mum who told me that..yes you are right about that too..but did you ever realize that our father also have play an important role in order to see us grow safely?yes..you realize but did you ever care about his concern towards your own safety?to be honest..I don't. At first, when I was kid..I don't bother about what my father trying to say to me..when I got back home hurt somewhere..he will immediately find a medicine for me..not angry but love that I can see in his eyes..I even remember when I first rode my bicycle and I fall, he said to me "start from now on..you will keep going fall over and over again but no matter how many times you've fall, you must find courage to stand up back!"..why is he saying that to me?at that time I might not understand but as I grow older and now reach age 22..I realized that, my father wouldn't always be by my side whenever I falls in future but his motivation did..


Credit to my beloved father:
You'll always be in my heart forever & thanks for loving me.

The video below was truly inspiring me..Enjoy~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kZlXWp6vFdE&spfreload=1

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Doping case of Malaysia's Wushu gold medal winner?!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t and evening guys!!

Before we begin lets start reading a dictionary first hehe..of course I wanted to know what is "doping" means after all..

According to Merriam-Webster (2012) doping is "the use of a substance (as an anabolic steroid or erythropoietin) or technique (as blood doping) to illegally improve athletic performance". This is considered as an efforts from the Olympic Council of Asia (OCA) to detect any kind of doping during the Asean Games.

Alright buddyz...I guess that everyone have heard on the issues regarding our first gold medal won by Tai Cheau Xuen, 24, in Chinese martial arts women's nanquan and nandao all-round which have been withdrawn due to her failure in doping test of 'sibutramine' yesterday..hmm feel a bit shock and sad with the final result of doping test but still rules are rules that should be follow even in Sports :'(

However, my concern is not really focus on the doping result but I'm more curious on the causes behind all this controversial issue which had gave a huge impact especially towards the National Sport Council Malaysia and also for the rest of Malaysian community..my question is Why does there are no particular parties for instance like coach or NSC's (Majlis Sukan Negara) officer did not conduct any doping test towards all athletes before they were allowed to participated in this Asean Games?? Why now? Why after 'these' athletes have won the medal than they are doing the test? Are this issues were not taking seriously by the Malaysian athletes when they are supposed to inspire people up for all their hard work and dignity?

From The Rakyat Post (01/10/2014);

Asian Games organisers on Tuesday expelled Malaysia’s wushu gold medal-winner Tai Cheau Xuen, after she failed a drug test, becoming the tournament’s third doping case.
Tai, 24, was tested after winning the Chinese martial art’s women’s nanquan and nandao all-round event on September 20, Malaysia’s first gold medal of the Games.
She was found to have taken the stimulant sibutramine, the Olympic Council of Asia (OCA) said in a statement. The Asian Games involves 9,500 athletes from across the region.
Read more: http://www.therakyatpost.com/asian-games-2014/2014/09/30/malaysias-wushu-gold-medal-winner-fails-dope-test/#ixzz3EsWsoZGO

Based on the statement above, our Wushu athlete (Tai Cheau Xuen) was tested right after she's winning the gold medal? It seems so strange when I read through it again and again..Either it was a conspiracy or what I wouldn't know but above all, I do really hope that all Malaysian athlete could gathered up their strength for another 3 days left and show their best efforts before end of Asean Games in 4th October 2014 (this coming Saturday)..
As for my question above, well it might take times for us to answer all of these..Plus, maybe it would be easy for us to be judgmental when discussing about this issue but we wouldn't know what was actually happen until we found the real truth...Stay strong Malaysian!! Be positive in everything that we has or might faced in life!! 

~ Asean Games stories 2014 ~


Regards,
Kiyoptafafai92.

Saturday, September 27, 2014

Racquet Apprentice Challenge in Memory

Assalamualaikum & hello everyone!

It's tiring because I have lots of things to update yet I didn't know how to express it in words..so, I would just share what I'd done in the last semester. Below is my report & also my reflection for Badminton Skill II class..It was a wonderful memory and I'm gonna miss this class as well as my instructor a.k.a coach (Brother Sharel) whom is very humble yet strict in teaching us about this skill.



Abstract
This paper is a report on the ‘Racquet Apprentice Challenge’ event which was held on 26th April 2014; Saturday that is organized by 30 students of Badminton Skill 2 (CCBN 3432) with the objectives is aim to;
1.      To familiarize the students with rules and regulations of a badminton tournament.
2.   To provide an opportunity for students of Badminton Course 1 to   participate in a badminton tournament.
3.      To discover new talents among the participants to become the next generation of Mustang badminton players.
4.      To enhance students’ badminton skills and boost their competitive spirit.
5.      To strengthen the bond between the committee and participants due to the same interest in badminton.
 This event were also being held as to educate students of Badminton Skill 2 on how to managing an event which involved with various parties altogether. Apart from that, this tournament also being held as one part of the assessment that needs us to perform well in order to achieve good marks in this course. Based on the knowledge that most of the students in Skill 2 class had gain in previous semester, they are need to organized this tournament on the specify date.




Introduction
‘Racquet Apprentice Challenge’ is an event which was organized by all students of Badminton Skill 2 courses. This event is organized as one part of our assessment in taking this course and we were judged based on our skill in managing the whole process before and after the tournament. It was held on 26th April 2014, Saturday at Female Sports Complex starting at 8.30 am until 7.00 pm. This program is organized as to familiarize students with the rules and regulation of badminton, to give opportunity especially for Badminton course skill 1 students to participate in this tournament, as well to enhance students’ badminton skill and boost their competitive spirit. 
 In this event, I was appointed as Assistant Head of Program Coordinator and I was responsible to assist the Head Program Coordinator, Brother Mohd Adli in order to ensure that this event run smoothly. As Program Coordinator bureau, apart from ensuring the event run smoothly, we also responsible to provide the master plan of the program, to forecast problems that may occur during the tournament and provide solutions as to overcome those problems, we also responsible for the full knowledge of the program in order to avoid confusion among committee members and players as well, and we also should be able to assist other bureau when needed.  
Apart from that, there is several significance that we had achieved along the way this event was to organized. As a team, we are able to strengthen the relationship among committees, with the instructor and also with respective department, we also learn on how to develop our management of event skill, enhance our solving problem and decision making abilities while we were in a difficult situation.


Findings
Participants
This event was participated by 92 Undergraduate students from both Badminton Skill 1 course and IIUM students who are not taking the Badminton Skill course. However, we had excluded the IIUM Mustang Badminton team from participating in this event. This is to maintain a fair game for those who new in this game as well as to achieved the objective which is to discover new talents among the participants to become the next generation of Mustang Badminton Players.  

Category of Games
In this game it was divided into four different categories which are Men Single, Men Double, Women Single and Women Double. For Single category, it comprises with 16 players for both Men and Women, whereby for Double category consist with 16 pairs (32 students) for Men and 16 pairs (32 students) for Women.

Meetings
1st Meeting
On the first meeting with our instructor, Brother Sharel, we had received an explanation regarding this Badminton tournament program. In the discussion, he also mentioned the selected date that we are going to run our event (26th and 27th April 2014). During the first meeting, we were given a chance to assign the committee members as well as the main board, the job scope of each bureau also explained so that we would able to help each and every one of us to focus  on particular task that has been assigned.

2nd Meeting
On 5th March 2014, we had our second meeting with all committees from each bureau. During the discussion, we focused more on the arising issues like for example the issues encounter by Preparation and Technical unit regarding the items needed by each bureau on the day of the tournament. Apart from that, each bureau of this event were also explaining on their Master Plan in order to make sure that all of their committee members do realized their specify task. Most of the minor issues like deciding committees’ jerseys, deciding menu for lunch and et cetera were discussed in ‘Whatsapp’.

Rehearsal
Three days before the tournament (23rd April 2014), all of the committee members gathered as to give a brief explanation about the rules and regulation during the tournament as well as to taught those who has been assigned as umpire and linesman on the technique of scoring in score sheet. In this session, I and Brother Adli were in-charged for the explanation and we also instruct all of the committee members to take part as linesman, umpire and few of them as players during the rehearsal. 

System of Tournament
In this tournament, we were using a “knock-out” system. There are total of 92 students from both Skill 1 and open student on the day of tournament. Thus, there were 32 games and 8 games for each category were competed (kindly refer to the Appendix A) 


Discussion
Basically, this report is to show the whole progress of this event which I as an Assistant Head of Program Coordinator and also the whole team members accomplishment which we had finally succeed in finished up our assessment which had given upon us to learn some skill and also unleash our hidden potential that we could not even recognized. During the day of tournament, we are able to manage the program successfully due to the cooperation and team work from each and every one of us. Even though at first we were decided to organize a two day event but it was changed unexpectedly due to the number of players which was supposed to presence during the day of tournament is low.
For the total of number of players that we were expect to join our Badminton event is 96 but there are only 88 players registered. In addition, we are also use the “knock-out” system which makes the tournament going on faster than expected. The duration of each game played on the day of event were able to finished around 25 to 30 minutes which is almost twice faster than we had assumed. However, we are able to take risk and make a quick decision and re-organized everything during the tournament. With help of all committee members, I was also able to face these difficulties.

Does this event empower us?
            In overall, this tournament had taught us on how to deal with various people starting from our own team members up to the person in-charge from respective departments. From this event, I do experience lots of new things which related to soft skills and also physical skill. In term of soft skill, I was able to improve my communication skill with all my committee members as well as to the respective department which involved for our event.
This event had also exposed me with the real rules and regulation of Badminton tournament from Sukan Institut Pengajian Tinggi (SUKIPT) and also from Majlis Sukan Malaysia (MASUM). I had learn lots of new things while handling this event like how to make a rules so that the participant would not be able to question us as organizer of this event.
Plus, this event also enhances our team building in doing the task together. We are able to handle difficulties and challenges together although some of the team members not really well support. I and my team members worked well during the tournament and they were able to understand the instructions that I gave to them while I’m busy working as umpire.    
   
Limitations

There are few limitations that I had encounter while working on with this event.
  •  Procrastination from the team members had caused unwanted emotional expression from other party which then affects the performance of the whole unit or bureau.
  •  The system that has been chosen which is the “knock-out” system is not suitable to run a two day event, thus had affect the whole program that we were decided earlier.
  • As Program Coordinator, we aren’t able to monitor the whole progress of each bureau due to limited time of meeting and discussing. Most of the time, we are using whatsapp applications as one of our medium to interact with each other and update the progress however, there are only some of them have the application but some were not.
  •  The used of shuttlecocks were limited to only 3 shuttlecocks per game during the tournament. Plus, foods and drinks were also prepared by the organizer but limited to only breakfast, lunch and dinner with simple meals however there is only 1 mineral water bottle 600ml provided for each participant. Due to limited budget given by Cultural Activity Centre (CAC) for this event which is rm3000, we had to cut some important sources for this event. 
  • During the event, we also faced difficulties of shortage of committee members. This is because there are 30 students for Skill 2 class and 20 of them were chosen as the umpire and linesman. There are only 10 students left to monitor everything while the tournament was continuing and this cause all the committee members feel fatigue and exhausted.


Recommendations

Here is some recommendation that could be following in order to improve for future event:
  •  In order to avoid procrastination, the team leader should already be aware with designated task that you and your team members are going to do. The task should be divided to each and every one of the team members and give due date for submission so that the team leader would be able to take action like give comment to the instructor about him or her whenever they aren’t finish their job.
  • The event was held on 26th of April 2014. Even though it was supposed to be 2 days event, the organizer managed to end the event in just one day. Due to time limitation, the organizer had to use knock out format for the tournament. With this format, it’s quite unfair for those two best players or teams that had to meet as early as first stage. To overcome this problem, the organizer can use grouping format with the best 2 players or teams can proceed to next round. Therefore, more time will be needed. Thus, organizer may consider in organizing three days event or one week event in the future. The one week event can be played on every night after class with just one or two games for every participant till the final games.
  • For future review, the Program Coordinator should do the action plan schedule and give it to each of the bureau and make sure that they complete the task within the time provided. Plus, action plan schedule can be as an evident for Program Coordinator in order to monitor the whole progress of each bureau.
  • The event was held on 26th of April 2014. Even though it was supposed to be 2 days event, the organizer managed to end the event in just one day. Due to time limitation, the organizer had to use knock out format for the tournament. With this format, it’s quite unfair for those two best players or teams that had to meet as early as first stage. To overcome this problem, the organizer can use grouping format with the best 2 players or teams can proceed to next round. Therefore, more time will be needed. Thus, organizer may consider in organizing three days event or one week event in the future. The one week event can be played on every night after class with just one or two games for every participant till the final games.
  •  For the future organizer, it will be best if they could add on few Mustang Badminton players as one of their umpire and linesman. Even though this event was supposed to be under the Skill 2 management but at least with the help from the expertise, the game would run smoothly. Another solution would be to provide the schedule for the umpire and linesman so that they could rotate with other committee members after every one or two games. 

My Strength and Weaknesses
Throughout this event was organized, I realize that there are some strength and weaknesses I hold which also need to be improve. Below is one of the recognition I am able to provide for both my strength and weaknesses:
Strength
Frankly speaking, everyone have their own strength or advantages that I don’t require. However, for me I would say that I am confident with whatever tasks that I’m ask to accomplish. I also able to be friendly easily with people like when in the middle of discussions I’m able to come out with joke or humor which will make people not feeling stress when they are around me. Perhaps, due to my past experience in handling program or becoming a facilitator had given me the trust from my team members to be the Assistant Program Coordinator and Alhamdulillah I’m managed to hold that position and do my task as given without any prejudice. I also considered myself as capable to be a leader (but only in a small group) because I could give instructions clearly and people are easily understand with the message that I’m try to delivered.

Weaknesses
As human being, yes I do have weaknesses as well which I need to improve. I do realize that I was not able to stick with my time table and be punctual when needed. Especially during the discussion, even though that I do come to our discussion but I would probably late 5 to 10 minutes than I supposed to be. Another weakness is I always keep everything to myself especially when it comes to giving opinion or suggestion. It happened when my team member would like to decide about our uniform during the workshop day and they ask me about it but I say “I’m not sure” or “I’m okay with it” even though I do have problem with it. Well, probably it can call as hypocrite but maybe I was trying to hear other people’s opinions except only hear from mine.


Conclusion
In conclusion, this event has been conducted successfully and we managed to improve a lot of things especially when it comes to soft skill. Even we faced some difficulties before and during the workshop, all of the team members have played their role with the high sense of responsibilities. Each of the team members co-operates together and helps each other when dealings with complications. Thus, this situation has created strong bond between the team members.  This event or tournament also has enhanced our team building skills, communication skills, and self- management skills.
Before I end, I would like to give extra credit to our instructor as well as our trainer Brother Sharel Rizel who had given me this opportunity to prove that I am capable in managing an event. However, without help from my fellow team members as well as the whole committee, I would not be able to hold such an exciting event and above all, the most memorable moment that we had shared together. This event does benefits me and my fellow friends a lots and we would definitely recommend this assessment to be organize in future insyaAllah.  


 p/s: this is just an extra input for what i'd done in previous semester..do not copy and paste cause I believe that each and everyone have their own personal experience and mine would not be similar with what others had experienced before..enjoy learn new things!! Ok bye..


To be continue....



'Racquet Apprentice Challenge'

Cancer Awareness Fun Run

Assalamualaikum and evening people!!

Okay lets just make it short..In this coming 11th October will be held a "Cancer Awareness Fun Run" at UKM (Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia) Medical Centre, Cheras..There will be lots of fun & healthy activities conducted and most important thing is that the money will goes to the charity for those whom in need! So Lets start our journey now by grabbing this opportunity to be healthier and helps others to be healthy as well!!

The details as below:


For any information regarding this 'Cancer Awareness Fun Run' please click the link below:


"Live life, Love life"


Peace all !! Bye...

Silver & Bronze for MALAYSIA !!

Sukan Asia

Incheon, 25 September 2014:

Tahniah buat penembak negara yang telah berjaya menyumbangkan dua pingat melalui sukan menembak hari ini. Nur Suryani Taibi yang berjaya memperolehi pingat perak dalam acara 50 meter rifle individu dan dalam masa yang sama turut menewaskan penembak dari Korea Selatan (Eum Bit Na) yang berjaya memperolehi tempat ketiga bagi acara tersebut.



Trio Negara: Muslifah, Nur Ayuni dan Nur Suryani


Kutipan mata sebanyak 1853.6 mata oleh trio negara ini berjaya meletakkan Malaysia di tempat yang ketiga walaupun hanya berbeza 1 mata dengan Korea (tempat kedua). 

Walaubagaimanapun, aksi dari pasukan menembak negara telah menunjukkan bahawa mereka tetap berusaha dengan bersungguh-sungguh dan sekaligus mampu mencapai kejayaan yang cemerlang buat negara tercinta. MALAYSIA BOLEH!! Go Malaysia Go!! 


p/s: I really wanted to explain all this in english but its was harder than I thought..hm I need to improve a lot better next time hohoo~ ok bye..

To be continue...

A Beginner is not a LOSER

In the name of ALLAH the Most Beneficent and Most Merciful

I always wanted to try to be an active blogger but I couldn't manage to do that because I always said to myself that "its' not gonna work..", "your stories wouldn't be as wonderful as others.." and so on and on..Well then I think about it again..should I really compare myself with others' opinion? They do have their own perspective and so do I..so, why shouldn't I try to share it with other??hmm...(lets give yourself a chance wouldn't you?) 

Ahaa!! and here I'm..finally after trying for one whole week to get to know with all 'these' new terms and whatever..Here is my first blog!! I hate it at first sight but suddenly I remembered one of my teacher always said to me that "a beginner is not a LOSER..!!" yeahh..try to not be a loser FAIZURA even though it's hard for you..wahh!! (feeling determined now)


Here is a quote for us to ponder about ^_^ have fun!




'Winners NEVER Quit & Quitters NEVER Win' - Vince Lombardi -

Friday, January 3, 2014

Get affected .


I have been asked by my sister in my usrah group to watch one of the short stories in YouTube TOMATO 2.0 . How does this very short stories could affect me that much ? I keep wondering why did i became like that , why i changed obviously ? How fast time flies .  It has been 11 month after the last day i see kaabah . hopefully , i'll get in there very soon . 

This is the words that keep playing on my mind , Alhamdulillah . I should and we shall do this together ! -

" I just came across this verse where Allah SWT mentioned that those unbielievers who passed away , they would plead to Allah SWT to return them back to life, so that they could do good deeds and things they had left behind (Solah & aurah etc) . But then Allah SWT said ; Nay ! It is but a word that he speaketh , and behind them is barrier until the day they are raised. - Surah Al-Mu'minuun - "

As the summation , you , i and whoever in this entire world didn't know when , where and how they are going to death , Only Allah SWT knows about it . Therefore , we need to get ready and be prepared for akhirah . 5 times a day is not really hard compared to get fit in the gym . While , you as a woman need to cover your aurah base on syari'ah not based on fashion style .Remember . Nau'zubillah min zalik . Assalamualaikum w.b.t . 

Monday, December 30, 2013

The Rich Get Rich , The Poor Get Tuition Fee's !



I'm not telling you that i'm against of government but sometimes yes , i must agreed . Now , you could see obviously how the government manage our country ? Open your eyes , don't get blinded by what old people said they might have experience, they might be too loyal because they only know about the past in their ages but not now . One of my lecturer's have said that , if our country Malaysia undertake the free education , the student might become worse as even paid education they are skipping classes and not really interested in study . It is because they have been tied up with the fees , their parents got burdened and have invested in their studies while they don't even want to continued in studies . Compared to free education , when the government gave free education the youngster whom has the interested should have this opportunity while the other one could continue with jobs or what they put interest on . Sometimes , this would lead the student more eager to continuing their studies because they don't have to think about fees , debt and interest . EDUCATION should not make as a business . there's no boundaries for every one to catch up their dream .  

Friday, December 20, 2013

The Scars

She bowed herself and took the screws that are on the floor , then she is continued preparing breakfast for her husband ;
 " Dear , breakfast is ready . Could you eat first before you go? ."
Her husband just ignore her and quickly reaching his brief case and turn on the car engine , went to the office in hurry .
She feel gloomy but then she just get into her room and get ready to meet her sister in law.

She hide all her scars in front of her children but not toward her sister in law . She could shed her tears .

"My life was dimmed by sorrow, what else should do ? how many longer i have to be patient ? I pray all the night , asking from Allah speed up the date of my death. I'cannot bear it any longer." she's crying out loud .

Her sister in law unspeakable as she's asking for something that most of all scared of , then her sister in law says
 "Why don't you find the place that would gave you the peace and remember you need to try to get out from the shell of that pain. I suggest you makkah is the place that would made you feel better while any closer to your creature Allah S.W.T , forget all the pain the things that burden you too much. Ask whatsoever you want upon Allah , Only Allah could help you , put your trust on Allah S.W.T.".

As she walked home she fell to thinking about the idea to Makkah as she is never been there and didn't do umrah yet which is compulsory for her . It was something she didn't planned all at first, but which , on the whole, was great deal better than any of the doings . Syed Hafiz , agent of travelling company was a friend's of her sister in law , whom always give a fair price and the best services .

Once she's reaching there , the first tears shed , as she could see the 'Kaabah' she is kneeling while crying and saying
 " Here where is my tears should goes down instead of crying over the person which i love in my life , O' Allah let me die here , forgive all of my sins , forgive him , forgive my parents , i love you , O'Allah." .

The Masjidil Haram was too crowded with muslim from the entire world , they were busy to do the commandment . She stayed in Makkah for only one weeks , she were very happy to be in there like the sky was very blue , and white clouds , like great swans , went floating over it to and fro .

Alisa's (her sister in law ) and Saif's which is alisa husband waiting her at the airport for half an hour before she arrived . She heard her someone's calling her name then she's quickly searching for the voice she heard, all of sudden alisa's hug her tightly from the back .
 "Hurray" she cried, "all done , and Saif's says we may go now it's too crowded here.".
She says:
 " I must tell you that i'm very happy to be there and there's something for you my dear ."
 Alisa's smiled as she love to see that someone's whom in blue have come and began to smile .

In an incredibly short time, she is in living room folding all the clothes with no one at home . The phone is ringing "cring.... cringg... "
she pick up and says:
" Assalamualaikum who's speaking ?" and been answered "I'm not going back for 3 days as i had a lot of thing to do , bye ."
She wondered "where is my husband went to and what was 'a lot of thing that he had to do'." with curious faces.

In deep she is slightly hurt and she started to find the truth until she giving up on life . While she find her husband step she managed to reveal the truth and all she could do was share her story of what she found , what she saw with her own pair of eyes . No lies, what she has been through was extremely tough . She managed to live her on life though her husband has tearing her heart was the biggest pain she go through . After 2 month patiently live her life like a doll who had no feelings , crying like river flowing through stone . Dr Carr , told alisa's that she might die within this month as her cancer has spread all over her body and even our expert cannot do anything towards her as operation is useless as it is too late , because of the spirits made her strong to still breath though in coma. Her husband never pay any visit within a month in hospital , in fact he enjoying his life with his mistress . She used to be rest in peace as Allah save her from continuing to face all the pain in dunya . Allah received her du'a in makkah ,insha'allah ..

-Officially Nur Farzana Iskandar -

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Haters

What is the first thing crossed on your mind when you heard about "HATERS" ?

1. Please go away and get your life .
2. You're lifeless .
3. Don't ever bother me .

Those feelings just came out spontaneously when we heard that words .
Have you ever thought , that why are those people hate us ?
what is the point of hating us ? we didn't do any mistakes on you sometimes .
We must be curious on some people who afflicts with this problem .
Why should you choose to hate us, As you could just ignore on what you do not like / things that you hate !
 It might be because you jealous upon me , as i'm better than you ?

But it's alright and it's okay , it does not bother me AT ALL !
I have read somewhere in internet that "THEY HATE US BECAUSE WE GOT SOMETHING THAT THEY WANTS" .
once i read this my expression was like 'ohhhh.....' because it seem like i am a little bit speechless but it is the TRUTH . What else the reason you had to hate others right unless they've got something that you don't .
Besides, HATERS could be our motivators to keep us ; stronger  and better . Just keep your chin up do not get depressed when you heard someone's hate you , never be in blue because it is showing that you're weak. Live your life , there's positive and a negative way that you got to choose when you face this kind on people. People aren't perfect they did a lot of mistakes , just make a positive conclusion about them so you're burning up . As i'm MAHOMIES i hold on this quote ' HATERS GONNA HATE , MAHOMIES GONNA LOVE'

Don't forget to listen to the songs by AUSTIN MAHONE .

Haters never win. I just think that's true about life, because negative energy always costs in the end.
Tom Hiddleston